Comments on: The snake http://modernsex.today.com/2009/01/04/the-snake/ Open Up Sat, 07 Nov 2009 20:23:36 +0000 http://www.today.com/version-2.3.1 By: Eve http://modernsex.today.com/2009/01/04/the-snake/#comment-21 Eve Mon, 12 Jan 2009 13:35:01 +0000 http://modernsex.today.com/2009/01/04/the-snake/#comment-21 Seven was about the time I "woke up" as well. And, like you, I found my dad's Playboys and often snuck into the bedroom, shimmied under the bed, and looked at them. I, too, had "playing doctor" moments with girls in my apartment building, and we were caught by her mother. For some reason, thinking back on these things really embarrasses me, and throughout middle school I began to think that I was a horrible, dirty person. Puberty was probably the worst time of my life. As for films, I remember one that my friend's dad had. He LOVED the band Kiss, and had a concert tour tape or something. I remember a scene with the band in the lounge with a bunch of half-naked girls. There wasn't anything explicitly sexual in the video, but for some reason that's the scene that stands out the strongest out of every movie we watched together. Seven was about the time I “woke up” as well. And, like you, I found my dad’s Playboys and often snuck into the bedroom, shimmied under the bed, and looked at them. I, too, had “playing doctor” moments with girls in my apartment building, and we were caught by her mother. For some reason, thinking back on these things really embarrasses me, and throughout middle school I began to think that I was a horrible, dirty person. Puberty was probably the worst time of my life.

As for films, I remember one that my friend’s dad had. He LOVED the band Kiss, and had a concert tour tape or something. I remember a scene with the band in the lounge with a bunch of half-naked girls. There wasn’t anything explicitly sexual in the video, but for some reason that’s the scene that stands out the strongest out of every movie we watched together.

]]> By: lovebunny http://modernsex.today.com/2009/01/04/the-snake/#comment-19 lovebunny Sun, 11 Jan 2009 01:37:19 +0000 http://modernsex.today.com/2009/01/04/the-snake/#comment-19 to be honest I've never really had a "playing doctor" moment... at least not that I can remember... everything was really repressed... I do clearly remember movies growning up that would initiate my submissive side... none coming to mind of course... but the idea of a "slave" to something much more dominant was there from an early age. to be honest I’ve never really had a “playing doctor” moment… at least not that I can remember… everything was really repressed… I do clearly remember movies growning up that would initiate my submissive side… none coming to mind of course… but the idea of a “slave” to something much more dominant was there from an early age.

]]> By: Lisa http://modernsex.today.com/2009/01/04/the-snake/#comment-14 Lisa Tue, 06 Jan 2009 21:09:43 +0000 http://modernsex.today.com/2009/01/04/the-snake/#comment-14 Not surprisingly, I was a bubblegum pop kinda girl lol. I was happy and romantic and didn't think of sexual things without the context of love. I watched Disney all the time (still do), and it instilled in me that "fairy tale romance" mentality. No one had sex, so I usually didn't think about it at all. I was always kind of a loner child. Anytime people "played doctor" or exposed themselves, for whatever reason, it embarrassed me. Two of my younger cousins used to do that a lot. And I went to an all girls sleepover with a friend of mine once where there was random nudity and comparing. I wanted to leave early because I was so uncomfortable. My first boyfriend and I were each other's first everything. Naturally, we thought we were gonna be together always. I had the mindset that people stayed together, there was only supposed to be one, so this must be mine, which is why my "wait until marriage" pretense fell. That and being a "goody two shoes" all the time had finally started to get to me. My friends were talking about things I didn't understand, and starting to mock me for being so "innocent". It's dumb, but hey... everyone cracks some time. After I got a boyfriend is when other people started to notice me (of course), because I was becoming more confident and social. That was when I started becoming the flirt that I am today. I still believed the fairy tale thing and expected some grand random meeting and wonderful things to happen because of it, which is why I cheated on my boyfriend. Sexual acts started to become a bit less meaningful for me then, but I still to this day feel bad when there is no feeling behind it. I have passed up a lot of awesome opportunites because of this lol. Sorry, I talk a lot. But yeah... Disney, romantic comedies... explains a lot. Not surprisingly, I was a bubblegum pop kinda girl lol. I was happy and romantic and didn’t think of sexual things without the context of love. I watched Disney all the time (still do), and it instilled in me that “fairy tale romance” mentality. No one had sex, so I usually didn’t think about it at all.

I was always kind of a loner child. Anytime people “played doctor” or exposed themselves, for whatever reason, it embarrassed me. Two of my younger cousins used to do that a lot. And I went to an all girls sleepover with a friend of mine once where there was random nudity and comparing. I wanted to leave early because I was so uncomfortable.

My first boyfriend and I were each other’s first everything. Naturally, we thought we were gonna be together always. I had the mindset that people stayed together, there was only supposed to be one, so this must be mine, which is why my “wait until marriage” pretense fell. That and being a “goody two shoes” all the time had finally started to get to me. My friends were talking about things I didn’t understand, and starting to mock me for being so “innocent”. It’s dumb, but hey… everyone cracks some time.

After I got a boyfriend is when other people started to notice me (of course), because I was becoming more confident and social. That was when I started becoming the flirt that I am today. I still believed the fairy tale thing and expected some grand random meeting and wonderful things to happen because of it, which is why I cheated on my boyfriend. Sexual acts started to become a bit less meaningful for me then, but I still to this day feel bad when there is no feeling behind it. I have passed up a lot of awesome opportunites because of this lol.

Sorry, I talk a lot. But yeah… Disney, romantic comedies… explains a lot.

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